a really blah blah blah tuesday..

firstly,thanks Vadergrrl for her comment for dropping by a greeting and thinking my site is gr8.honestly,im flattered.
you know what,Vadergrrl..i have been to ur blogsite before.and i love that mix of Zena warrior, Juliette Lewis and Vampirella inspired looks of urs.
sounds really intriguing and dangerous.lol.

Yng and her dear guy made up again.sigh..well,not that im not happy about it.infact i am.
just that i havent stop feeling lousy.

Jason has been a gr8 boyfriend for most of the times.but i dunno what is up with me sometimes.its like...my gut is telling me,"you 2 make gr8 couple for now,but never for long all becoz of you."

sigh..i really dun want him to read this but this site has been dedicated to him right from the start.and its not fair when he doesnt know what is happening.

i mean..i dunno about how you guys think.but sometimes those kinda gut feelings or maybe what you called women intuition speaks alot.

my guts tell me that indeed jason is gonna make it big one day,but long before it told me that jason and i are not possible to last forever.
dun question me,its just like that.

sometimes i feel..im the kinda thats really better off single.i always hurt the ones that fell for me,and yet i never get the ones i fallen for.

i rem' my friends used to ask me why i always think about the bad part even when i have a bf now?dun i wish lasting with my bf?
well..how do i explain?
i do...but really..i dun think im the one for him as now and always.

i told you im sick.
this would make jason so insecure having me as his gf.
maybe its those kinda time again.every once or twice a month,i would feel this way.and it makes me realise that...well..just realise all what i have typed just now.

Period!
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my future is in my own hands.lets see.
im going down to try another student care teacher at Bishan later.
im going down to Delfi Orchard for the cust svr and admin interview on Thursday,5pm.
and im waiting for Jones Lang Laselle to call me in for the HR intern.

what do i want?
if i want to just work in the society,i probably start at the admin level,and drill on this aspect.
drawback?how far can you go?and your life would be stuck there and always.
plus pt:well..at least its simple job earning decent money.and that Delfi Orchard is in town,except ur weekends are burn~

if i want to work with the kids,i would keep trying for student care teachers.and maybe apply for NIE next year.
drawback?and teacher is all you can be for the rest of your life and its no adding value to ur resume,unless you really go for NIE.
plus pt:maybe facing kids are better than adults.

IF Laselle call me in for HR intern.i probably learn alot in HR area.
drawback?i dun like HR,though that is what i studied.and that is only an intern job.
plus pt:you will learn in HR area and thats gr8 value add to ur resume.


everything i wouldnt have much choice.